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A revisit of my first song... of two. I wanted to go back and change some things but didn't think that was enough so I changed the singer, some of the instruments, and the guitar amp, as well as some of the lyrics and the melody.
lyrics
[VERSE 1]
Break me break me into pieces shatter me like glass
These painful painful thoughts keep running through my head en masse
This madness sings a hellish tune the anthem of my truth
I want to dig my eyes out so I can't concede my view
I'm crazy crazy dangerous to everyone and me
Don't get too get too get too close 'cause I'm not what i seem
Everyone around me's always waiting for the fall
But they can go to hell 'cause I'm not picking up the call
[CHORUS]
Every night when the lights go out my soul gets a little darker
Broken past repair / My sense of self is fading not quite there
I'm lacking reason / Need to match the pain of
All my inner demons clawing at my psyche
Can't stand the sight of all these medications / Curb your expectations
The common thread is me
Shatter
[VERSE 2]
Darker dark I'm spiraling / My brain is short on steam
I'm losing losing sanity at a concerning speed
I can't tell the reason to my volatility
And I can't stop the monster that has grown inside of me
Sharper sharper is the blade that pierces through my heart
Bolder bolder is the force that's tearing me apart
The people all around me cannot face reality
The worst thing about me's the part that no one seems to see
Do you feel any pain? Any thoughts to harm?
Are you hearing voices / Seeing things that are not there?
They might think instability is part of my charm
They can't truly understand a struggle they don't share
[CHORUS]
Every night when the lights go out my soul gets a little darker
Broken past repair / My sense of self is fading not quite there
I'm lacking reason / Need to match the pain of
All my inner demons clawing at my psyche
Can't stand the sight of all these medications / Curb your expectations
The common thread is me
Shatter
[VERSE 3]
Won't you make the outside match the truth?
I can't find the words - no I can't speak to you
Keep pushing my friends and peers away
Fallen for the person I can't help but portray
Break my body break my mind it's all the same to me
Take control of what I know / I can't see what you see
Tell me what you want and I will be at your command
This people-pleasing shit is gonna kill me in the end
[BRIDGE]
Tear down the walls build them back tall
Bite down hard and tough it out
What to do don't let them see you
I don't know why I don't shout
Cut me stab me sting me jab me
let me lay my eyes on sin
Beat me rush me strike me crush me
Fix my soul by breaking it
[CHORUS x2]
Every night when the lights go out my soul gets a little darker
Broken past repair / My sense of self is fading not quite there
I'm lacking reason / Need to match the pain of
All my inner demons clawing at my psyche
Can't stand the sight of all these medications / Curb your expectations
The common thread is me
Every night when the lights go out my soul gets a little darker
Broken past repair / My sense of self is fading not quite there
I'm lacking reason / Need to match the pain of
All my inner demons clawing at my psyche
Can't stand the sight of all these medications / Curb your expectations
The common thread is me
Shatter
Shatter
Shatter
Shatter
Shatter